That little girl who is a proud owner of a black n97 mini goes by the name of Kelly W. She was born on this special date - The nineteen of December - and lives in a cozy house located in the sunny island of Singapore.

Like it or not, this is a place where she pens down her thoughts, feelings, and memories. & all those nonsensical things at times.

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I was really sad in the afternoon, despite being in high spirits for the morning and lunch. :X

Ah, it's 2:32pm and I'm rotting like some idiot at np coop. How fantastic. Not saying that I've nth to do, but I don't really like doing things alone sometimes, eg now. Yeah, I'm freaking alone now in a place kinda filled with pple who I am not even acquaintances with, or rather, to put it crudely, pple who don't even bother about my existence. I've slept enough too...
 
I'm bored too.
 
& now it's 3:09pm after a long while. I'm disappointed once again. You know? I think I'm in that effed up position Dominique said i was in which I'm not going to say out. I really feel like calling it quits, especially what has happened today. Can you stand it if you feel that pple are making use of you so out rightly that even those who are bystanders can actually point it out to you, and better still, not even making eye contact with you when you've done perfectly nothing wrong? I had company just a while ago, however, instead of feeling comfort, I felt empty. That emptiness. Maybe it's my fault for not doing my best to include myself, but have you ever thought of how hard it is to integrate into an inclusive group? People keep on telling me that I should leave for good, for there are greener pastures to graze on. Sigh. If not for several issues, I won't contemplate this much.
 
As for now, all I could do besides rambling on & on is to make sure none of the 4 bags with me are lost. It's 3:22pm now. I'm srsly wasting my time. I mean, I can't even leave my seat. This is exactly how I feel in the situation.
 
I feel as if everything I used to know is getting superficial. The sincerity isn't there anymore. Things changes; changes are unavoidable. In spite of all that I heard and the possible choices I know I could make, I'm still at a lost at this very point of time. I'm scared. I really don't know what to do. Perhaps I just need time to freeze for a while, just to sort out the mess in life.
 

It's 3:36pm. I have nth much to say alrdy. Words can no longer convey my disappointment.
 
3:47pm le. One of the worst feeling is to feel included yet left out at the same time. It's like feeling that somethings are so near but far at the same time, and you don't know how to perceive what you see. I honestly feel like going back home now. Really. This is one of my longest 2 hours in the whole year. I don't expect pple who I know to suddenly pop out of no where to entertain me, I just want something to happen.
 
Issit me just being oversensitive, or are you just insensitive? I can't decide.
 
I kinda envy pple who can just cry to let out their emotions. I feel like crying now, but i just can't trigger the flow of tears. Like, it has been a long time since i really cried for a long while.

& finally there's someone after like 5+.

Okay, training was quite interesting, just I fell out again! 8D Woots. Good job Kelly. :) Comiss' lecturer is nice! :D Ramly burger & T03 for lunch! :D

Okay bye! :D back to top?